Recently i bought a Japanese movie called " Tokyo Tower: Mom, Me, and sometimes Dad"..In this movie, it is based on a novel written by "Lily Franky" that touched the heart of 2 million people in Japan with his true life story…Based on the title alone, i guess everyone would know it is related to family story again..hmm..again,it is less scary compared to 1 L of tears..it made me cry less..but takes me further to understand my parents..

  Is it harder to say "i love you" sincerely from your heart to your love ones or hating someone? I guess..to me, hating someone to the core is much more easier..it is easy to say " i hate you, i really hate you" but the hardest part of hatred is forgiveness. All it takes is a few seconds to hate but takes years to forgive. However, i guess if you really do hate someone, perhaps you must had loved them deeply before. When you had not first loved them, you wouldn’t hate them that much..Or perhaps, when you truly love someone will you say it out and clear.."I love you"..Have you said it out that you love parents? Did you whisper to your mom " I love you" from bottom of your heart? Or just a courtesy word from you to her.. To me, maybe..just maybe me just like my dad..saying out true romantic words out from our mouth…it is always the hardest..hardly expressing or maybe more suppressing unlike my mom..

How long since you hold your parents’ hand..just like when you are small..when parent holding your hands while crossing the road..or just perhaps walking together side by side..Or perhaps how long you stop expressing how to love them? Stop doing like things for them..maybe a birthday card..or perhaps a little scribble drawing?..Maybe..just maybe..nah..that is what small kid does..have you stop been a little child to them? Maybe..just maybe..you wont realized..all the little things you did when you are small..or every cert’s or trophies that you achieve..you brought much joy in them..unnoticed..you might find them keeping nicely…close to their heart..Maybe just maybe..they themselves just as much as you like  to suppress…Just like my dad, i often missed the way he used to carry me back to bed when i fell asleep in the car..holding his big palm while crossing the road..He seems never try harder to say it out..but it always make an effort to do what he can for you..

In this story, his dad was a drunker..but deep down he is a man that still cares for the family..just somehow, he wasn’t expressive enough..maybe just maybe..he is vain..He still loves his wife and son but just sort of forgot how to love them enough..His mom in the story wasn’t make perfect but just perfectly for him..She loved him dearly..gave her all to support him to study..ensure him to graduate..but unknowingly her son been spending her money for vain stuffs..Isn’t the same? Maybe..just maybe..

There is always a connection that hardly seen..binding your heart and theirs without reason..Have you experienced that when you almost at the brink of breakdown..crying out loud alone..and all out of sudden, they just called…maybe just maybe coincident..but it is true enough to pierce through heart with warmness..They always seems to know when you need them most. Away from them makes heart grew fonder..missing them is just another expression that they cant seen…A piece of jigsaw that missing from the whole frame..Reluctant to believe they are aging with time..and so am i..Believing that they won’t leave me behind..but still one day they will..if your love ones been very unwell, would you constantly make an effort to call them? making sure and believing that they are healthy and fine..hoping to hear they said they are fine.One day, maybe..just maybe if i grow not to love them so much..will i let them go? So, have you spend most of your time at home accompany them or you really regretting not doing so?

No matter how hard or difficult time is for them or perhaps for you..parents have always love you..So, have you tell them that you love them lately?

Ps: Happy Birthday, mom..I love you..  & loving you too, dad